Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot.

Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot, your death has made me realize that every single second we spent together, I wasted an opportunity to tell you how much I loved you. Death thinks it can take you away from me, but it doesn’t know that you will always live in my memory, heart & mind. Since very long I knew you that cancer was going to take you way eventually but I just didn’t believe that eventually would ever come. Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot.

Your memories take me back to the time when I used to come back home crying from school. You always gave me a hug and say ‘don’t worry everything will be alright’ Now you are no more but your words have empowered me to become the person that I am today. Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot.

 If I had the chance to meet you for one last time I would just ask you to hug me as tightly as you can, rest my head on your shoulders… and cry till my tears run dry. I miss you maa. Now it’s too late, but I know you are listening to me from the heaven above. Maa, I love you and I understand all the sacrifices you made in your life to give me a better one. No matter where I am or what I am doing, you will always be the shining star which gives me the strength to move on. Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot.

You know what that the only reason I don’t want every child to have a maa like you… is because I know that everyone may not have the strength to lose a mother like you. Most people can only dream about seeing an angel. I had the pleasure of living my whole life with one, and remembering her after she flew away into the heaven. Maa, I love you and I miss you a lot.

जाने कब से सोया नहीं हूँ मैं, आकर मुझे सुला दो माँ

जाने कब से सोया नहीं हूँ मैं, आकर मुझे सुला दो माँ, आकर मेरे पास मुझे फिर से लोरियाँ सुना दो माँ,
आंसू मेरी आँखों में जम से गए हैं, भर के दिल मेरा मुझे अब रुला दो माँ,
भूखा हूँ मैं तेरे प्यार भरे निवाले का, अपने  हाथों से एक निवाला खिला दो माँ
कैसे कैसे दर्द देके दुनिया रुलाने लगी है,  मुझे आँचल में लेके मुझे  इनसे  निजात दिला दो माँ
कोई नहीं है मेरा ये एहसास दिलाने लगी है दुनिया, थामकर हाथ अपने होने का  एहसास दिला दो माँ..

Story of true cancer survivor

Here’s a true story of a cancer fighter who undergone gruelling 7 sessions of 6 cycles each of chemotherapy and 5 major operations and she always knew how important it is for cancer patients to be motivated and why there is still a need to spread awareness about cancer. 

Married to a service class man and blessed with two son life seemed perfect, when in July 2002 it decided to take a U-turn. After episodes of sudden bleeding, weight loss & continuous pain my mother was diagnosed with Ca ovary stage-II. After a number of tedious tests, her treatment got started at Jaipur Golden Hospital, in New Delhi. An extensive surgery was performed, then she went through one rounds of Paclitaxel and Cisplatin based chemotherapy & then went to Rajiv Gandhi Cancer institute (RGCI), New Delhi for further treatment and suffered numerous side effects like hair-loss, nausea, blisters in the mouth and terrible weakness. (Read more about the side-effects of chemotherapy.)

She also had to undergo 6 rounds of chemotherapy at RGCI after which the doctors declared her cancer free. Her treatment got completed in December 2002 for which she was always grateful to her doctors who were more like psychiatrists, explaining her in detail everything about the disease, treatment and its side effects, and also providing guidance to face the disease bravely. She was very optimistic otherwise but with cancer she had her moments of doubt and cynic. Thanks to her strong will power, family, friends, neighbours and doctors who really motivated her to stay positive which helped her to fight the disease and come out as a winner. This also made us realize how important it is for people fighting cancer to stay motivated and positive for better results.

There are so many myths surrounding cancer and many people still believe that cancer means death. So, it is imperative for patients and caretakers to receive proper guidance on a regular basis. (Read more about ten cancer  myths and myths about breast cancer.) 

Every time she was able to recover and fight back was just because of her strong will power and her desire to live. My mother’s experience with cancer has definitely made us a better human being and I feel very fortunate that life has given me a chance to help others. This I can say has been her journey from a victim to a victor. I truly believe that ‘Cure is in the hands of God; but care is surely in the hands of man.’

दलित

दलित सिर्फ दलित ही बना रहना चाहता है, चाहे उसे किसी प्रदेश का मुख्यमंत्री मना दो, लोकसभा अध्यक्ष बना दो या फिर भारत का होम मिनिस्टर बन जाये ! चाहे लोकसभा की 131 या विधानसभा की 1125 सीट रिजर्व सीटों पर लगातार चुनाव जीतकर विधायक या सांसद बनाने वाले भी, दोवारा जनरल सीट से नहीं लड़ना चाहते और बार-बार चुनाव जीतकर भी कथित तोर पर दलित ही रहना चाहते हैं, वो अपने आप को दलित कहने में फक्र महसूस करते है, क्या करें वोट बैंक का सवाल जो है ! यानि दलित किसी जाति या गरीव या दावे-कुचले व्यक्ति का नाम नहीं बल्कि एक मानसिकता का नाम है ! कैसा लोकतंत्र है ये, जिसमे एक करोड़पति व्यक्ति कथित तौर पर दलित है और एक भीख मागने वाला भी कथित तौर पर उच्च बोला जाता है !

आरक्षण

फेसबुक पर ज्यादातर लोग आरक्षण विरोधी लड़ाई को जातिगत बनाकर लड़ना चाहते हैं ! कोई ब्राहमणों को संगठित करने की बात होती है तो कहीं राजपूतो को इक्कठा करने की !

आखिर हम इस लड़ाई को योग्यता को अधिकार दिलाने के पैमाने से क्यूँ नहीं देख पाते ! कुछ ब्राहमण और क्षत्रिय ही नहीं बल्कि बनिया, कायस्थ, पंजाबी, मुस्लिम, यादव, जाट, गुजर, धोवी, धानक, नाई, तेली, बंधू भी आरक्षण के खिलाफ हैं, उन्हें भी इस यज्ञ में आहुति डालने का मौका दो भाई!
 

आरक्षण के खिलाफ लड़ाई किसी एक जाति की नहीं बल्कि समाज के हर तबके की है, ये लड़ाई किसी व्यक्ति से नहीं सरकार से है, ये हमें समझने और समझाने की जरुरत है!
 

आरक्षण से जितना नुकसान अनारक्षित वर्ग का हो रहा है, उससे कहीं ज्यादा आरक्षित वर्ग भी इसके दुष्परिनामो का शिकार है ! आरक्षण से अछे खासे इंसान को अपाहिज बनाकर बैशाखी का सहारा दिया जा रहा है ! इसलिए में सोचता हूँ अब हमें और बंटने की आवश्यकता नहीं है !

Jhoote Daave

Jo kehte the hum tumhare ho gaye
Jo kehte the hum koshish karte hain tumhe paane ki
Jo kehte the humne umeend ka daman nahi choda
Jinka dava tha ki wo mera intezar kayamat tak karenge

wo hi aaj mere marne ki dua karte hain
duniya se mil kar mujhe khatam karne ki saazish karte hain

kuch chand rupyon k liye itna gir jayenge
ki apne ghar mein khud hi aag lagayenge

wo itna gir jayenge iska andaza mujhe bhi na tha
sab jhoothe daave the mujhe pata na tha

wo haste hain khelte hain khush rehte hain
bhul gaye hain mujhe apne chahne walon k sath mast rehte hain

ye baat mein kabhi bhi unse na kahunga
par mera dil aaj bhi ye kehta hai

tumne pata nahi kiya ya nahi kiya par meine sirf tumhi se pyar kiya hai 
aaj bhi ek dil hai jo din raat unke liye tadapta hai

par jo mere khamoshi nahi samjh sakta wo mere bol kya samjhega

Roti

Sara kasoor hai es roti ka,
na jaane kahan se aayi aur kisne banayi roti

na jaane kisne iska beej boya
na jaane kis khet/zameen se aayi roti

es roti ne mera desh chudaya,
desh se videsh le kar aayi roti 

roti ki keemat wo kya jaane
jisko milti hai bani banayi roti

us bhooke se pooch k dekho
jisse narein churaye roti
ameeron ka shaunk aur garrebon ki hasrat hai roti

bina hukum k andar bhi na jaye roti
hamesha khao HAQ Halaal ki roti